If i could chose to do anything for the rest of my life right now despite everyone else id do kennel work, i adore it, its not boring there’s always something different happening, new dogs, new cats, new scenarios, yes it can be grubby for example its very wet here at the moment within half hour of starting i had mud smeared all over my shirt from one excited fox hound who when on hind legs is taller than me (im 4 ft 8) i dont care when they jump at me at full speed, when i get scratched or nipped (by accident i normally swear if its deliberate lol) also alot of smelly laundry and poo picking I dont care i love being with the dogs theres so many characters and the cats make good company the rest of the time. They make me smile.
Now in everyone elses eyes this is a catastrophe and aweful and just plain wrong makes me a low life and a slave (seriously a bloke handing me 3 huge dogs- 2 doblermans and 1 grey hound, he was meant to help me again im a small person these dogs are like up to my stomach sometimes chest. But no he talked to me like shit ‘Just go’ id much rather oh thank you for taking my untrained on the lead dogs and caring for them would you like help moving them down to the end block with that bag of belongings and sheet you are carrying? But no snotty Mr i gritted my teeth and moved on i hope it pisses it down for your holiday. We’re not low life scum we’re actually pretty decent people and its probably your fault why your dogs are always so unsettled and angry). But yes moving on from snotty people. I left school at 16 highest grades in my year high flyer headed for good universities and a brilliant acceptable career. oh but what happened i had a psychotic break and breakdown from repressed trauma and home life became hell. So um yeah hospital blah blah blah inability to cope with people blah blah blah and what did i find… a path and hope and enjoyment through care and love and work with animals.. but its a career choice frowned upon its not meant for ‘high intelligent people like me’ its bollocks I love this work. I want to do open learning course in animal communication specialising in dogs after but its not good enough! If im going to do animal care it has to lead to veterinary surgery nursing at the least not behaviour or rescue work. I want to be a dog shrink lol specialising in terriers and the like fostering and adopting rescues for my life. But no not allowed, Just because of my stupid intelligence and gcse grades from two years ago.
Im lost with this all.. i am not sure as to what route im going to (be forced to) take Im being made to rethink all my actions and try and say things and chose things in a way that wont cause conflict.
So yes secret one, that i have not revealed to anyone.. so congrats tumblr!